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Tired…..

Posted on June 1, 2015 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

Hello dear blog… As usual, you get all the crap that goes through what substitutes as the excuse of my warped brain… I am sooooo tired, tired of everything, tired of my nonexistent life, or that’s at least how I … Continue reading →

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Screaming in silence…

Posted on January 19, 2015 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

Dear diary, What do you write when you’re screaming on the inside? How do you get that emotion out in writing? How do you manage, when there is no one you can talk to, no one that you trust enough … Continue reading →

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Differnt day, neverending crap…

Posted on May 23, 2013 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

Ok WARNING, WARNING, WARNING… in dire need of venting, so if you can’t handle reading a PTSD crazed loon venting, cussing and other graphic descriptions… Go read some page about growing flowers or something else non traumatizing… Been a few … Continue reading →

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Never ending past…

Posted on December 9, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

When does the past become the past and something you can let go of both consciously as well as unconsciously? People you meet or know tell you: “Just get over it! There ain’t nothing you can do about it, so … Continue reading →

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Current crap… Venting…

Posted on July 12, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

Today is NOT a good day for me… I am soooo tired. I am so tired of waking up every fucking morning crying like a freakin baby. Why am I crying? I have no clue… I’m just tired… Today I … Continue reading →

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Life as a phone ho…

Posted on June 30, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

Living in Miami Beach Florida in 2001, I found myself in the difficult position where I was over-qualified for most jobs I applied for. Having only Swedish job references was also a problem, as most employers were too lazy to … Continue reading →

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What caused my PTSD to become full-blown…

Posted on June 13, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

What caused my PTSD to become full-blown and a condition that affects my everyday life was a “tummy tuck”, which is a routine surgical procedure, which went totally “south”… My surgeon had made several mistakes which he refused to take … Continue reading →

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My Bitching…

Posted on June 11, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

So what does my life look like today?? Am I constantly bitching like I have in the posts I have previously written? Honestly? Yes and No… Of course I do some major bitching, especially here on my blog where I … Continue reading →

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My first love…

Posted on June 10, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

I was 13 yrs. old first time I had “consensual sex” with my then (same age) x-boyfriend. He had broken up with me since I didn’t want to have sex. Not because I didn’t feel that I was old enough … Continue reading →

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Who and what am I???

Posted on June 8, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

Who am I?? Where do I belong? Am I even human? I’ll honestly admit that most days, I don’t feel human… But then, most days I really don’t want to have anything to do with the human race… Of course, … Continue reading →

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PTSD, The Beginning….

Posted on June 1, 2012 by Fighting My PTSD Demons

I have decided to write my story/biography both as a sort of help for myself, as well as perhaps hopefully a help to others that live with PTSD. (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) I am in no way a professional, even though I … Continue reading →

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